May here we go…

Feeling optimistic about May so decided this months word / moto is BE BRAVE so deep breath here we go…

Ideas for May…

Get photographing – and better at documenting things for the future – remember to take ‘along the way’ photos… for me as I want to get cameras out and batteries charged – somewhere to upload photos – I would like to get a darkroom going again.

Sort out the front garden so looks AMAZING – think of it as shop front (move bins to behind gate – yes very annoying when putting out but will look so much better – re-do bunting – brighter colours

Try hanging cans from tree branches – mini tags?

So why the BE BRAVE… well I have so many dreams and ideas and I let self-doubt creep in – last month in one of my melt downs (yeah I have a lot of these) Rich said what is actually bottom line the matter / problem that you are melting down about – I probably didn’t start at the root of the problem as I didn’t want to admit it or know it – I’m not sure – but I shared some of my issues / thoughts / shame – like what is shame? but hey… –

He was like WHAT… WHY… yes you are using some cash – but not that much…

You are not harming anyone – you are doing good to the environment – you are or should be enjoying yourself this it what it is about – a hobby.

You are learning so much – about yourself and about seeds and plants and compost – which is totally true.

But if you are not ENJOYING this what is the point – seriously WHAT IS THE POINT…? If it is stressing you out so much why are you doing it? It made me think about it…

So Rich’s job a Solutions Architect (for / in IT) and he is very good at it – I wanted to say – was going to say – I am lucky – but I realised we are all lucky in different ways so… the long and short of it is… he is good at asking the right questions and finding the solutions to the issues/ problems I have – come up with / raise…